lost and lonely, in a big way..
My name is Alain Wannamaker, I am 18 years old and very confused… I have a pretty good life, I have friends, I have a family that loves me and I’m just starting to realize how smart I actually am. There is just one thing missing.., love, what is love, where can I find love, I can’t.. because love isn’t something that’s found its something that’s built, and I know this but every day I torture myself, trying to find “love”, I’m even reading a self help book. I sit and ponder “what’s wrong with me,” why am i not datable? is it my hair? is it my face? my body, my mind or personality, but I just can’t come to a conclusion. Lightly iv been thinking I like my best friend; I know kinda fucked up right, I know if I ever confronted her about it she wouldn’t be very receptive but what can you do? maybe me being lonely is because I act shallow… but that’s because I see so many flaws within myself I need to act like I’m the shit to make myself feel better.. but it only last for a short period of time…, why am I like this, I think Im going crazy.. any-ways for the people reading this that are all like wtf is this kid on, i just wrote this to express how I feel, maybe you feel the same way.. who knows, all I know is iv gotta figure something out.. and quick..
